Sorry I have not written in a few days. I guess when I have my good days I just don't want to think about cancer. Instead, I spend my time with my boys, husband, and friends. Trying to make up for lost time, one could say. I have spent a good amount of time outside, between soccer/t-ball practices and games. I was so glad to be there for Parker's first t-ball game. It was beyond cute. He was the first to bat, and he was so proud. Pearce could not be outdone by Parker...no, he had to score two goals at his soccer game. My little men had so much fun.
Back to reality. My favorite, lucky number three is back again. This time for my third round of chemo. I am not going to lie. I have had enough yet I have only just begun. I never got back to my normal self after this chemo. Maybe because of the cold that is still lingering or maybe the cumulative effect of the chemo is beginning. Either way, I do not look forward to tomorrow. Tim says I have the temperment of a bull dog right now. The anxiety is starting to surface. But, like any good soldier, I will march on into the doctor tomorrow and sit for the toxic drugs to infuse into my blood. My focus is finishing in time to make it to Parker's second t-ball game at 5:30. I will be cutting it close, on top of trying to avoid the inevitable illness that is soon to follow my infusion. My mom has come back in town to lend assistance. The boys have a full week between practices, games, and school activities for Easter. At least I won't have to worry about getting the boys everywhere. I can just stay at home and try very hard to get better.
I have two motivations to overcome this third chemo. First, we have the Easter Bunny to prepare for. I think Easter is Parker's favorite holiday. He LOVES to cook the eggs, dye the eggs, decorate the eggs, hunt the eggs, then eat the eggs. Luckily, I have prepared early for Sunday. Second, after getting their baskets and hunting eggs, we are getting in the car and leaving for the BEACH!!!!! We are so ready to get out of town. I am kidding no one. I will still be sick when we leave. Drugs and a vomit bags will be close in hand. I just know I would rather be looking and listening to the ocean than be in my bedroom. Plus, I know that I will begin feeling better once we get to Gulf Shores, Alabama. So here is to overcoming my dislike of the number three. Once we leave, I will not have access to a computer(nor do I want one) so everyone will have a week off from my blog. All posts that week will be on Facebook. Talk soon and thanks again for all the love and support for me and my family. It really means a lot.
Good luck tomorrow! :)
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