Hello my friends, family, and followers,
It was brought to my attention that I have not posted in several days. I guess I never thought people would actually check this blog every day to see how I was. So, now I feel guilty for depriving everyone of my daily boredom. Seriously, I do appreciate the thoughts and concerns. I guess 6 days can have a lot happen if I don't write any of it down. Unfortunately, not much of anything has happened to me since the last post.
I went Friday and had 2 of my 4 drain tubes removed. That was not the most fun, but I have had worse and it is definitely nicer having only 2 drains/bulbs to babysit. I also was treated to a nice lunch with friends and family. Then I was done for. See, that is the thing. I am slowly getting out, but I have a very narrow window of time my body can tolerate this activity. THAT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I want to hold my children....I can not pick them up, take them to the zoo, or even walk to the neighborhood playground with them. THIS IS STARTING TO KILL ME SLOWLY. I over did my activity twice over the weekend and spent the rest of my days in bed or sitting down. I am having to learn not how to slow down but to pretty much STOP!! I think somewhere in my blog description I talked about being a control freak and hating my body taking control of my life...well, it is starting now. Sorry, I just had to vent. I know I am fortunate. Everyone who sees me says I look great and can't believe I am even out, dressed, or functioning. I am blessed to have my family help me every day to get dressed. I am blessed to have friends who call and check on me daily. I am blessed for all the flowers, baskets, and meals we have received. I take none of this for granted. I just have so much time to think, and not much physical ability to do anything. I have been praying daily for a friend's father who has to have bypass surgery. I am physically limited to what I can do for her. That bothers me, a lot. I like to do for others...I always have. It is nice having so much done for me and having the time to heal. I just hate how limited I am to those I love and care about. Soon, I will get my full strength back. I am just counting down the days.
Tomorrow is a big day. I have 2 doctors to see. The first is my breast cancer surgeon. He will take out the last 2 tubes. This will leave 4 holes in my chest that will have to heal and close. At least I can have a shower tomorrow afternoon. I love a good bath, but not when only my bottom half can enjoy it. Then I go see my oncologist. This will hopefully be the visit that clarify what my chemo plan is, more detailed about time and duration. I have so many questions that hopefully will be answered. Of course, these couple hours out and moving will exhaust me. I will just take a pain pill and have a long nap.
On a positive, the weather this weekend was beautiful. I loved just sitting outside with my Kindle reading or watching the boys ride their 20 different types of wheeled vehicles. These last two days of rain and lower temps don't brighten my mood, but I know in a few more days the sun will be out and the temps are warming up. I plan on walking as much as I can tolerate. One to build my strength and two to enjoy the beauty God has given us. Every day I look out my bathroom window to my Ann Magnolia tree Tim planted a couple of years ago. The blooms are beautiful and bring such a smile to my face. Hope everyone is enjoying their spring break.
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